babbling

Assalamualaikum my dear readers
she: Huda, please take note that bla bla bla bla bla. bla bla........me: (nodding) oke. sure. yes.
The "bla bla" conversation above is the example when I speak English. It was between me and a person who not speak Malay. the situation is she gave me some orders or maybe informations that I need to tell my underlings. that time, I only understand what she say for the first 3 seconds, then I got lost. I know what was she talking about, what are the things that she want me to know and deliver, but not in details and not very clear. i'm just guessing, actually - according to the certain words that i could catch. the reason why I don't understand, maybe because of her slang (she is not Malaysian), too fast for me, or maybe it's because my brain is too slow to translate the data in ^_^  I think she realized that I was not paying full attention to her when I just nodded my head and my face did not give the confident feedback. (data out is not as expected. ^.^) oh, pity her. if i gave others the wrong information, I'm a dead girl.
back then, I always want to talk fluent in English. seriously, I really feel jealous when peoples surrounding me speak in English like they were born and understand the language. I think it started when I started be friend with Mardotti, Dee Dee and Yusma. I adore them. sometimes they encourage and help me to speak and improve my English, understand the complicated words and etc. thank you friends for waking me up and now I realize that it is really important to conquer it. I regret for not learning it seriously during schools.
if I read books/magazines/papers that written in English, I ignore any words that look complicated/new for me or any words that I don't know the meaning and guess the storyline. honestly, I'm poor when it goes to vocabulary. grammar? you can see it through my writing. I don't like to open the dictionary. lazy. yes, this habit continue till now and thats why the above conversation happened. in a group, if people laughing for jokes, the only thing that I can do is smile. I didn't got joke. I want to laugh too. sigh. if people lie to me, urghhh~ can't imagine. please, I don't want to let it happen.
okay. I wanna stop here. you'll get bored if I continue writing-nothing. Huda, you can do it! thank you for reading. hoo-roo!! bubbye~ Assalamualaikum.
ops sorry guys. before you leave, enjoy this funny video! daaa (^_^)v
p/s: anybody understand what are they talking about? hehehehe~